Yamapi's shock

Yamapi held Linda’s hand tightly as the ambulance drove madly into the streets. “Linda, talk to me,” he begged.

Linda who was almost unconscious responded when she heard Yamapi’s voice calling her. “Tomohisa,” Yampi heard an extremely soft whisper.

Yamapi leaned closer. “Linda, what is it?” he asked.

“Sumimasen,” he heard her apologized.

“Ne, why are you apologizing? Linda, don’t close your eyes. Look at me. Tell me that you are going to be ok. Say something. Linda,” he said, frightened out of his wits.

Linda slowly closed her eyes and gave him a soft smile and uttered an apology again before she went into unconsciousness. Yamapi stared at her in silence and just followed with the flow when the ambulance arrived at the hospital. Linda was wheeled into the operation theatre where he was not allowed to come in. Yamapi stared at the door, his whole body numbed with fear.

“No, I will not forgive you,” he heard himself saying.

By that time, everyone ha arrived. Yamapi had retreated into a corner, not realizing that he was clenching his fists tightly that they had turned white. “Yamapi, do you need a drink?” Koyama asked.

Yamapi did not answer. It was as though he had gone into another world. His eyes were blank and face expressionless. “Yamapi, get hold of yourself!” Ryo shook him.

Still, none of them could get through him. They gave up and decided to just wait for the result of the operation.

(In the operation theatre)

“Doctor! Her blood pressure is weakening!” the nurse exclaimed.

“Doctor, it seems that the baby’s heart is also weakening,” the assistant doctor replied.

“Let me see the scan,” he replied.

The doctor had expected this to happen. The mother was losing blood internally and the baby was suffocating because the umbilical cord that connect the mother and child and served as the baby’s lifeline had been severed. “Prepare for the operation,” the doctor announced.

“But doctor! Both of them will not be able to take the pressure,” the assistant exclaimed.

“We have to take the risk. We have to save both of them or not, even one,” the doctor replied, taking charge.

A few hours later, the doctor managed to get the baby out. He handed the baby over to the doctor who was specialized in children who was standing nearby waiting. The doctor received the baby and immediately shouted out instructions to revive the tiny baby. The baby had stopped breathing. Due to his small lungs, which were not fully developed, the doctor had to be careful of the amount of air that he pumped in to make the baby breath again.

After a few trials, the baby managed to take in air. “He is not crying, sensei,” the nurse helping him cried.

The doctor frowned. “He is still trying to breathe properly. We shall put him under observation,” the doctor replied and made arrangements for the tiny newborn to be put in a special cot.

At the same time, the doctor attending to Linda had finished stabilizing her and was also doing some last minute tidying up.

The doctor left the operation theatre and was faced with a lot of people. Yamapi immediately stood up and looked at the doctor. “How is she and the baby?” he asked quietly.

Everyone strained to listen to his voice. The doctor looked firm. “Both the mother and child are saved. Their conditions are stabilized now but I cannot guarantee how long it will be. We will try our best to save her but please do be prepared for the worst,” the doctor replied and told them what happened.

The doctor left and a few moments later, Linda and the baby were wheeled out. Yamapi refused to see them. He closed his eyes when they passed him. “Yamapi, go and see your wife,” someone said but the words fell on ea ears.

“No,” he said.

“What?” Yuki asked and everyone looked at him.

“I’m not going to see her. I’m not going to see the baby. Leave me alone,” he said, his voice hardened.

“Yamashita Tomohisa! What are you thinking of? She needs you now! Your baby needs you to live on! What are you talking about?” Massu grabbed Yamapi’s collar, practically about to hit him.

Ryo and Koyama pulled Massu away from Yamapi. “I will not forgive her,” he said after Massu was pulled away from him.

Everyone was stunned. Yuki got up and slapped Yamapi hard. “What are you talking about? Do not forgive her? What did she do? What did the baby do? I WILL be the one not forgiving you. I hate you. I cannot believe that you are this type of person. She’s better off with Akanishi than you!” Yuki shouted and lost her balance because she was agitated.

Shige caught her and held her close while Yuki cried into his chest. Yamapi walked away from there. He walked and walked, not realizing where he was going.

He was in the hospital’s park. He sat down in a corner, hugged his legs and started to sob. He recalled the scene in the ambulance. He recalled that scene where Linda apologized to him and close her eyes. He then recalled the scene when she was smiling at him that morning, teasing him about the way he slept. He recalled the scene when he last saw her full of energy. He recalled the scene when he last kissed her. Finally, the scene that came back to him was when she was closing her eyes and the loud crazy beep of the machine indicating that he was losing her in the ambulance.

“Linda, Don’t leave me,” he whispered in between the sobs.